I hear their screams of silent disapproval
Feel their arms, clutching me, holding me back
“Don’t go out there. You’ll die. It’s not safe for us.”
My belly’s a stone
Ingested before I was born
I’ve tried to throw it up
Doesn’t budge, it’s mine now
I carry it with me
This inheritance
This heavy key to the past
This memorial to those before me
This museum housing their lives’ dreams and losses
Maybe it’s not something to pass
Like a kidney stone
Or to be removed like a cancerous growth
Perhaps I need only to lovingly lay it down
At the feet of those whose dreams I am now living
Perhaps their burdens are not mine to carry
But mine just to remember, and know
As I move forward into my own life’s dreams and losses
To be remembered, one day, and known
By those who come behind me
That’s so gorgeous, it moved me a lot. Sometimes I reflect on the freedoms I am living now which my Mum & grandmothers never had; I’m a lucky woman, yet still I carry more rocks than my son… it is the way of the world it seems 🙏🏼
Lovely work
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Thank you so much. Have been doing Family Constellation work so it is in my mind of late.
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That’s interesting; my therapist suggested I try that work a year or two ago, but haven’t got round to it yet…
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It is really interesting! Beautiful, earthy, healing.
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