Well, I hit a wall of resistance. (And I lost.)
I had planned last Friday to post a video I made for an audition submission, and then, promptly got “too busy” to post it…
Monday came and went…Tuesday came and went…
I could have posted some other content, but some part of me knew I was rat-finking on myself by doing so, so what did I do instead? NOTHING.
Well, that is exactly the sort of behavior that will keep me stuck in my room with my own creations. And that is not where I want to be, ultimately.
So here I am, today. Here is the video I intended to post Friday. Day twenty-five.
Not sure why it is so scary. Fear of judgment? Certainly. But life is filled with judgement. Judgement need not be a four letter word. Judgement is preference, choice. I am all for those.
Fear of criticism. OK, now we are getting closer. Ahhhhh. Sensitivity to being criticized. That is where I need to work up a callus. Develop a thicker skin over the tenderness of my own creations.
Be with the tender and raw vulnerability of sharing creations and yet stay on my own side around whatever chips may fall as they may.
I am good with constructive criticism until I am not…I mean I say I welcome it, and the artist and professional in me do, but deep down inside another part of me dreads it.
So here I am, holding that part’s hand as I share something I made for a general submission for theatre representation. I am resisting pointing out the flaws that I know are in it so as to pseudo-cushion any “blows” that I imagine coming my way.
Today’s post is about being more interested in sharing it than of my fear of doing so.
To be more curious about sharing something and then moving on to create the next thing than of holding on to something and never letting it see the light of day.
What are you keeping in the safe space of your own home that needs to be put into the world?
Do you want to stay with fear or go with curiosity this time?
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