The Price

Memorize this:

You will never know me

I will be there (have nowhere else to go)

dutifully doing what is expected of me

Keep my part of the silent agreement we’re all in

Actually, I’ll go beyond all expectations

I will be beyond criticism, beyond reproach

The outer world will see that perfect picture you are so invested in

But you will never know me

You will not gain entrance to my inner spaces

Never have my attention in any meaningful way

My heart and soul are permanently shut to you

This, I choose, and it will forever be my choice

Remember this

I know I will

 

Inspired by The Daily Post Daily Word Prompt: memorize

Pain Management

I long to go under

Lose consciousness, go blank

Slip away into nothingness.

What does that say about me?

A local’s not enough.

I don’t need the area around the wound deadened

I need to be deadened.

I am the wound.

Put me out, put me under

Let me go down into the void.

Maybe I’ll come back

Maybe not

Either way, I’ll have relief at last.

 

Inspired by The Daily Post Daily Word prompt: local